SSgt Jeremie S. Border... R.I.P.

Ok...I think I have finally gotten to a place that I can talk about Border's death without falling apart...Here goes... Border give me strength... SSGT. Jeremie S. Border was a man among men. You were the man who no matter what obstacle stood in your path, your shoulders were broad and your voice firm. You loved your family more than any other and to every body around you it was known. You were not cowardice, prejudice, or any other means weak... You were as strong as any person I have ever known. You were the one thing that made sense for so many months..years... You were my best friend, my shelter from the hard, cruel realty, my safe place.... I loved you on a level that can not be reginerated.. You called me "love".. and I now realize that I was taking for granted all the times I repayed that gesture. I took for granted how much we loved each other...I loved you more than you will ever know, and that's my fault... I had every oppportunity to tell you that you were amazing, that you were the best friend I ever I had, that I truly loved you....Jeremie Shane Border... You helped me become who I am today and I am a lesser person today because you are not here.... I love you more than you will ever know. You would be so honored by the send off that Mesquite gave to you...I will tell you that as the emotional girl you know me to be, I lost it as I saw the respect and love they showed you, Border... Border, they all but closed down the world for You!!! I fell apart driving... Honestly, I almost rear-ended the guy in front of me...you truly got a heroes send off like you deserved and like I couldn't imagine... Only, I keep imagining it's someone else...because surely, the person I told everything, the person I loved like my brother, the person I felt was my soul mate ....why you???.......... ok..I'm ok... they stopped incomming traffic from disturbing the procession... and It seriously was amazing, Love... They had emergency personnel stopped on every over pass and saluting... I called my mom because I couldn't handle it... You would have been the one I would have called, that was the hardest part. I wanted, needed you and you weren't there ...That was honestly the hardest funeral I've ever been to.. but you would know that... I love you my dear friend. I know that you are sitting up their with God with a smirk on your face, talking about what's next.... I bet you have your smile...I wish I could see your smile again. I love you, Border. Until I see you again my dear sweet friend.... And I think it's funny that you're probably laughing at me for "being a girl" for crying like I am. But I love you, Border. I miss you, Love. I just wanted you to know that you had a Heroes send off like you can't imagine, and the people down here miss your smile.... I love you Border.. Send me a nice guy Okay?! I love you...and miss you.

365 recap

So,lessons learned in the past year....

1. You can't make someone love you...it doesn't matter how much work you put into it, what you do, say,give them, or how many hours you put into trying to make them love you...they either will or won't and sometimes they just won't.

2. I am too competitive to enjoy golf. I want to enjoy it, I like the idea of golf, but when it comes down to it...I really think I just shouldn't play bc I just get mad. As goes with Monopoly(which I have come to truly hate, I think.)

3. Not all long distance relationships are created equal. It completely depends on the people in them and how much they like/care about/or want it to work with the other person.

4. Never keep an old flame burning. All an old flame will do is burn you...Put it out!

5. Working out really does make you feel better..but you actually have to show up for it.

6. You are going to make mistakes, but you will make more mistakes when you take the control from God in your life and do it your own way.

7. Sometimes you have to walk away from people you love to save your sanity.

8. Never let the opinions of others control your opinion of youself.

9. For every sixty seconds you spend upset, that's a whole minute of happiness you will never get back.

10. You can make yourself a better person if you work at it.. but its one thing that you have to do alone. It's not something others can make you do, so until you want to be better, its not going to happen.

Have a blessed New Year!

Have a GOODloe Year!

I ain't settling, for anything less than everything...

You ever wake up and realize you are operating your life at mediocre?  I mean not that I am not giving my best at the things I am doing but that I am not doing things that I feel I will look back on in a few years and be really proud of.  Well, I woke up like that last week…

I have the house, car, job and maintain them.  I do well at my job and I do well at the activities I am involved with outside of my job.  But I want more.  I want to be bilingual, healthy, get out of debt, to start a family… And the thing about it is that I can do some of them with a little work but that God WILL bless me with the rest, I just need to have faith.

So, how am I going to achieve my goals that I can do myself?  I am doing Rosetta Stone to learn Spanish, I am working out, I am putting myself on an even stricter budget and starting my own side craft business, and well the last one isn’t mine to handle.  There are other things I want to do but those are some biggies.

So to keep me accountable to my above goals, I am going to post my progress on my blogs so that yall know if I am slacking and can razz me!  And you better!  I need the encouragement!

I weighed myself on 11/8 and took measurements and will re-measure 12/8 to give an update.

Yo tengo un perro negro. :-)

Have a GOODloe Day!

Crossroads...

There comes a point in every person's life when something important is staring them in the face and they have a choice. 

A, you can follow your head...it might be the safest, might keep you from getting hurt, might be where the money is, for whatever reason, in that situation it is what any sane mind might look at as generally the one path you should take...
B, you can make a concious decision to make no decision and let "life" make the decision for you.  Again, you might feel it is safer because you aren't risking anything by being stable, right?
C, you can follow your heart...obviously the most risky...your physical heart for some reason is attached to emotional feelings and does actually ache if something goes wrong when "following your heart." But while the cost is the greatest, the benefits are also the most rewarding.  Following your heart can lead to love, or a new career, or friendship, or forgiveness, or a dozen other things, but like I said, if something goes wrong, the cinch around the middle of your chest is going to be pulled awfully tight..

So whats the plan?  Do you have one? Do I have one?  Will it matter?

...I choose to toss in all of my marbles... here's to hoping they don't get thrown back...

Have a GOODloe Day!

Get Real...

“Real”... “100% real juice”.. “The real deal”.. “It’s the realthing!”.. There are very few things in life that are as real as they say.  I’ll admit that some days just to help theday pass more smoothly, I am not as real as I’d like to be, but right now, I’m gonna get real with you…
When I get upset I cry. When I get mad I cry.  And sometimes I laugh so hard that I cry.
I sing in the car almost every time I am alone.
I bite my nails when I’m nervous, or sometimes just because I am bored.
I put me or someone I know into every song I hear on the radio.
When I am really upset I can’t eat, but when I am really stressed I over eat.
I’m more likely to stress over the people in my life than money, but once I start stressing everything stresses me out.
When I love someone I give everything I can, until I realize they don’t feel the same…and I find myself withdrawing.   
I have a major complex about nose that began years ago from kids teasing me.
When I feel threatened I get defensive and don’t always play fair.
Been known to have a beer or a pint of ice cream after a bad day.
I don’t usually forgive quickly, even though I know I should. 
I will be your greatest ally if you keep me on your side and never mess with my family.
I have been cheated on so many times that my expecting it is now a blessing and a curse… I know what to watch for but I am also overly suspicious and it can hurt someone I care about.
I could probably go all day, because I feeling pretty open right now, but I’m sure you don’t really want to read about my flaws and oddities for pages…so I am going to stop…But what I want you to do is get real with yourself and those you care about. Embrace your Ben & Jerry’s moments and your squeaky Mariah moments in the car.  Love him as if he is goingto look at you like that forever… You never know when will be your last carride home so tell him you love him, even if you’re saying it alone.
Have A GOODloe Day!

Walking the dog..

You ever noticed that when you walk your dog they always seem to wait until a car passes to make their business?  However, Today Anabelle picked nice, secluded, grassy patch that had it not been a church yard I would have apporoved..It was out of eyesite of passing cars and I had to agree with her that the grass was nice and plush.  But there is just something wrong with letting your dog doo on holy grounds...so when she started circling I was like, "NOOOOO!!!!!" and did what felt like a slow motion run to stop her.  It seemed "Marley & Me" esque (the part where marley poos in the ocean).  I got her to another grassy knoll, and of course I got to wave as the cars seemed to stream by while she read the newspaper.
As we continued on it was kind of nice.  The light breeze seemed to take the burn out of the 100 degree sun bearing down on me.  I could see the park just ahead and I could tell Ann could too because she got a little extra hitch in her giddyup...she started kinda running and looking back like " Really mom, I am running faster you?" So I trotted a bit and our feet finally sunk into the soft grass.  As I sat there for a minute I was like wow, this is nice, I should do this more often.  It was nice just siting in the cool grass with my dog and not worrying about anything...and then the yelling.....  Apparently these were the only tweens in Artesia without cell phones.  All the way across the park they carried on a conversation about why one was leaving..."Where ya going?" "I'm leaving." "Why?"  I stopped listening at this point because I was perplexed by the person I was seeing yelling across the park.  Very long Bieber hair(almost girl length but shaped for a guy), black wardrobe from head to toe aside from the chains, pants so baggy and so low I honestly have NO IDEA how he kept them on.  It was a magic trick of some sort is all I can gather.  He was kindaa ambling back toward his bellowing companions and it took all I had to not yell, "Hey boy, if you put your drawers on you'll get there faster!" I decided heading back might be the better idea.
On the way back, I stopped and talked to a friend from church who I realized lives along the way (at which time I also realized Anabelle is not as comfortable with other dogs as I have always thought.) Moving along after small talk about the weather, my walk was almost complete.  Anabelle rounded the next two corners as if we had taken this route a hundred times before, I think she is a lot smarter than I giver her credit for...and I KNOW she is a lot smarter than Drew gives her credit for, but that is a-whole-nother blog. 
So a few more walks under her belt and maybe I can get her and Guinness out at the same time...That should be lots of fun, and lots of embarrassing potty breaks to endure!
Have a GOODloe Day!

Make you cringe...and maybe giggle

OK…so, here is a little light reading brought to you only by the great Land of Enchantment…I was sent the story in a forward so I had to look it up because I couldn’t believe it.  But sure enough it happened just as it was sent to me, only the account by this reporter was more thorough and has a couple details that were a little funny (you’ll see if you read all the way through)… If your jaw doesn’t drop you don’t have an empathetic grain in your body or a sense of humor.  This is one of those stories that hails a, “You might be a redneck if…” “Twisted it off, O-F-F, OFF!”

LAS CRUCES - The woman who twisted off her daughter-in-law's nipple in a drunken brawl has pleaded guilty to the crime just days before she was set to go to trial.

Amelia Love Oveide, 46, entered the last-minute guilty plea to aggravated battery against a household member with great bodily harm on Friday afternoon, said Deputy District Attorney Michael Heitz.

A one-day trial had been scheduled for Thursday before state District Judge Douglas Driggers.

Although the attack left Oveide's daughter-in-law unable to breast feed on one side, the victim supported Oveide receiving a sentence of supervised probation, Heitz said.

"It's her mother-in-law, and everybody had been drinking," Heitz said. "Although she is upset about having her nipple ripped off ... It's still family. (Oveide) helps with child care and everything. She didn't want her to go to prison."

Oveide grabbed the 30-year-old victim's breast when the younger woman tried to intervene in a drunken argument between Oveide and her 27-year-old son early the morning of Dec. 12, 2010, according to a police report. Oveide could only be stopped when the younger woman allegedly started punching her in the face, the report stated.

After Oveide was removed from the apartment in the 1000 block of Idaho Avenue, the victim realized the struggle had left her bleeding. When she untucked her tank top, her nipple fell on the ground, according to the police report.

Instead of calling 911, the victim put the nipple in a bag.

After several hours, she decided she should go to the emergency room at Memorial Medical Center, where the Las Cruces Police Department was called as doctors were attempting to reattach the right nipple to the victim's breast.

A felon whose criminal record includes two convictions for drug possession and one each for firearm possession and concealing a weapon, Oveide was ordered Friday to pay for the victim's medical bills, which totaled around $10,000, Heitz said.

It gets better... wait for it….

The attack was one of the most bizarre the district attorney's office had ever seen, said Heitz, who prosecuted last year's case in which a teenager defecated in a stranger's car - mistakenly thinking it was his girlfriend's.

"This was one of the odder cases," Heitz said. "I can't even imagine what kind of force would be required to tear a nipple off through clothing." –(Las Cruces Sun News, Ashley Meeks)

Gotta love New Mexico and our “odder cases.”  On the second mentioned case, first, who would defecate in another’s car?  And second, who wouldn’t check that it was at least the right car before said defecation?!  I love this reporter for sharing not one, but two redneck stories with us in one piece of journalism.   

Have a GOODloe Day!